Monday, March 29, 2010

So real...So Final






Today I got a phone call and my heart sunk. Its one of those things I wanted but when it came right down to it I didn't. The stone had been delivered. After almost 9 months its was finally here. I couldn't stop crying. It just makes it so real. He is really there now. I didn't want to leave him. Standing there alone I just wanted someone to hang on to.
I took Konnor on the way to his swim lessons. He just stood there and looked at it. It all seems so unfair!
It is beautiful. I know he would love it!!!

15 comments:

Jennifer Truitt said...

Thinking about you and praying for you today!!

Cheryl said...

The marker is beautiful!!! It is so hard to actually see their name in print in that form. I still think of you and the children often and pray for you. Many milestones God has seen you through.

Diana said...

Heather it is beautiful. I wish you and the kids never had to face something like this. Randy loved you all so much. I am crying as I write this, I loved him so much, and this really does make it seem final. I love you. Diana

Tim and Kristina said...

It looks really nice,Heather. Somedays I don't think the pain will ever go away for anyone. Love you and praying for you!

Anonymous said...

Oh Heather!!! You picked out the perfect stone. It is so beautiful...I am crying for you and the kids....mom and dad...myself. I am so sorry. What mom said is true, Randy adored you and the kids. I have known since I was little watching you and Randy, you guys LOVED each other. Sometime at little to much in front of us...Just kidding. :) I love you Heather, you are always my sister! I wish I could take away your hurt. I wish I could just hug you. Love you and praying for you!! Thank you for picking out something that really is a tribute to Randy...just think even after years and years people can look at that and know just who Randy was, and who his family was...thank you!! I LOVE LOVE IT!
Joanne

Constance said...

It is beautiful. I'm still praying for you and think of you often. I found a picture of randy just the other day in my old pics. When we had the dedication service of Tocsin church and you guys were there. Someone took a pic of him getting food. Love you and keep looking up

Missy said...

What a beautiful memorial of Randy! I continue to pray for you often, Heather. Sending you a hug...Missy

Janella said...

Heather you did such a nice job picking the words, picture, and sayings on both the front and back of the stone.Having a hard time typing because tears are falling. When you see his picture there it just tears me up inside. I miss Randy and it just doesn't seem right that he is gone. I know my missing does not compare to your loneliness and missing the man you love for so long, the daddy of you kids, your protector, the one you could talk to, the one that held you at night. Sorry friend I know it still hurts BAD!!! I love you. My tears and prayers are with you tonight.

Jenny said...

Heather, I have thought of you and the kids so often. I can not even imagine the pain of actually having Randy's name set in stone with his birthday and his homegoing date. Wish there was some way I could make it all better. Call me if you need a friend to chat with, I'm out of school now...Love to you and your kids,
Jenny

Char said...

It's beautiful Heather - a wonderful tribute...pray for you and the children so often...

Amy said...

Heather,
I absolutely LOVE the grave stone! I know that Randy would have loved it!! You did such an awesome job picking it out. Somehow it does seem more final with it there! I am so glad you married Randy! You are so much like my older sister!! I am praying for you!!
Amy

matannjess said...

What a beautiful stone! May God continue to be with your family!

Rebekah said...

We miss him so much!!!! He was such a good example to us of a good father and husband!!! Nothing meant more to him than his family. Will never forget his solid beliefs in what he believed! I respected him so very much and will never forget his loyalties to his Jesus and family. Love ya!

-Bek

Lanee M. said...

Still think of you and pray for you often!

~Regina~ said...

Heather, What a beautiful marker! I think of you and pray for you and the kids often!