Monday, September 28, 2009

Missing

Wher do I begin? The dark hole around here is still here. There are alot of emotions flowing around here and it has been hard as of late. It gets better then its gets bad again. We are are missing Randy so much! Its just not right that he is not here! The kids are missing him something awful. The other night Konnor said" Mom, I wish daddy would come back to our house again". I have found Kade sleeping with the picture of Randy and him. I think its makes me most sad to think of all Randy is missing with with them. Kade has started talking so much. Something Randy never thought he would do .8o) It is just weird without him around here. Its the small things we miss the most now. Putting the kids to bed and the special things he called them. Katie said" I just want to hear him call me Bug again." The way he would chase the kids up the stairs and be up the stairs in 2 giant leaps. I hate going alone to functions. Its not the same without him. My friends help but its not the same. I have the most awesome friends in the whole wide world!!! They keep me going.
Just trying to keep things going around here keeps me busy and I hardly have a spare minute. I need to get the fall decorations out. Just one more thing to do. I am becoming a list person. Something I vowed to never become. LOL Well it another busy Monday so I need to get moving.

9 comments:

Mindy said...

You don't know me...I found your blog through a friends. I also know Rob and Martha. I feel so bad for your lose! I read how lonely you are and I just want to cry for you! I don't know what I'd do if something ever happened to my husband. I just wanted to let you know, I'm thinking of you. I don't have any other words...:( Just remember God is with you even though you seems like you are falling apart. We've lost a baby, but it doesn't compare to losing someone you've been with so long. Again, letting you know I'm thinking of you.:)

Char said...

You have been in my thoughts and prayers so much over the last few days. May God grant you His peace and comfort...the kind that passes all understanding...thinking of and praying for the children too...

The Going Blog said...

Heather, I was wondering how your time away went. David went to the men's retreat and he missed Randy. Last year they sat together alot and he really enjoyed his friendship. I thought of you alot as I took care of the kids by myself and my heart breaks for you. All I can do is pray and I am doing that on your behalf.

Jennifer Truitt said...

Heather,
Just want you to know I haven't forgotten about you and am continuing to keep you in my prayers! I am so sorry for all you are missing and feeling right now. I can't even imagine how difficult it must be. We will keep praying for you and your family!!!
Jenn Truitt

Ronda said...

Oh, Heather! My heart hurts so bad for you...The thought of your little Kade sleeping with his Daddy's picture about broke my heart. Know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Wish so much that I could help. So glad that you have the good support of friends...even though it doesn't take the place of your sweetheart.
Ya know...being a "list person" is not so bad! :)It helps me keep things going around here.(Most of the time, anyway! LOL!)
Take care...I am praying that you will feel God's love in an extra special way today.

Anonymous said...

Love and Miss you!!

Missy said...

I don't know it you want people to comment or not, but I just have to tell you that I am praying for you. I have not forgotten about you. Sometimes it feels like after a while most people get back to their regular lives and forget about the fact that you are hurting. I want you to know that I have not "forgotten" about you and that I still pray for you and your family every single day! Even though I don't know you that well I do know that you are an amazing woman. I am sorry that you are having to go through this. Sometimes life isn't fair, is it? I wish there was some way that I could help you. Just know that you are loved and prayed for. Lv...

Sarah Cook said...

Just thought I would say that I love ya and said a quick prayer for you.
It must be so painful for you all. I wish there were some way I could ease it for you.
Your girls are so sweet. Whenever they see me come with my children for a piano lesson at the church's fellowship hall, they just snatch up my kids like they love them... of course, my children love the attention!
Ron is in the hospital and will be there for a quite a while. He is in Ohio State University- The James. I know your church prays alot for him and us, and I want you all to know that it means so much... thank you!
Tell your children Hi for me... we might not be there for lessons much right now, but we might see them there once in a while. You've got some precious children! You are precious too, friend! Love ya, Sarah

Rebekah said...

It is two o'clock in the afternoon and I'm supposed to be cleaning my house.....Instead I am sitting here bawling. I know how much we are still feeling our 'Randy size hole' so I hurt so bad for you guys! Chad and I were both in tears over the weekend talking about how we are going to miss Randy in our family. Makes me want to scream at times. Our hurt is minimal in comparison to yours though. We are still praying for all of you!! Can't wait to see you in just a few days now!!!!! (Oh, yea. Don't worry about the fall decorations!! I'd love to help you!! I never get to celebrate fall down here so I'd be more than happy to give you a hand.) Love you all, Rebekah